end of year stuff …

For next year you should write on your own blog. back to your own plattforms. no facebook. no third-party-shit

Not more blogging in the last weeks, even if i tried too, but just to damm lazy! bloody facebook! bloody twitter! … maybe everything is too well in my life? no more crying around and saying „me me me“ or am I just to relaxed?

For next year find something you care about!

Of course, it’s the money as always. And that there is still nothing which would give me a sense of responsibility for someone or something. ok, i enjoy quite a lot of things, probably to much, but can’t make money out of it. thats the different to quite a lot of people i know. i only work, cause u must work for a living, otherwise i would spend my time and nergy in the outdoors, helping nature to survive and educate people about it.that makes sense! i really enjoyed my work in Iceland, guiding and educating people about the ocean eco systems and marine mammals or on Haleakala in Hawaii, volunteering for the National Park on Maui. So see! There is something work related i enjoy! Instead of the whole Graphic „you hipster fuck no cares“ Design Studies, i should have learn something about forests and oceans, bees and plankton and how to teach things, so YOUR kids will know what animal Paul is!

For next year, you should volunteer & doing stuff with WDCS, SSCS, IFAW or Greenpeace – of course there is no money in this game, but all lot of good karma and worth doing it

speaking of volunteering kind of, the whole co-working space düsseldorf project has kicked off and we made it happen in 3 month. now we must see work to fill this creative space and help to let it grow. its really great to create something, which could be last for a while. as i told many people, even if it fails, i made real world connections with people and ideas, can you ask for more?

For next year work hard on your own business for profit and help to let the others grow for karma!

i will try to work (hard) there on my desk till spring. so i can see, if the freelancing thing is my deal or not. it feels good and i love to design and code for the web, but still its doesnt’t change anything. no idea, if it was right to put webdev on my card, but just let’s see.

For next year be „here“ –  try to find a regular daily structure in life. not more more more

next year is coming up and i would love to, how to say that, not settle down (Cats Stevens Song, anyone? i mean i wouldn’t mind for the right reasons!), but be here, be around and see what europe has to offer. step back a little bit, after the last 5 years of traveling and adventures. 2004/2005 Australia  2006 and 2007 study like crazy 2008 diploma Iceland, family affairs,  2009  hamburg, great summer, canada, california, hawaii, australia and 2010 new zealand, indonesia, singapur thailand, world cup, great summer, coworking space …so it would be really ok to be here, be in love, focus on someone, work and live europe. düsseldorf?  i don’t care as long as i can make it money-wise. so if it should be Hamburg, Copenhagen, Helsinki or Lisabon for a GOOD reason, come on let’s do it!

i think  i learned a few things while travelling and being on my own for quite a while. there is a very small line between doing things and running away from things.

For the next year you should be more active (again!)

better late then never. start again with running and kendo on a regular basis. try to dive at least once a month, and even try to rock climb, maybe even (kite)surfing and snowboarding. hiking of course! there a 2 big ones in germany i wanna do: the „saxony  mountain walk“ (100k +) and the „harz walk“, maybe something in the south.

For the next year you should think hard about where you wanna go from here and how!

in the long run there is „my“ big decision to make:  i love my people and room in düsseldorf, but i need to decide on the „big try“! Iceland? Australia? Canada? Hawaii? Asia? for real? not just a few days, weeks or month. real commitment, but then for what? and why? just for a better outdoor lifestyle? starting from scratch? no friends? no job? no working visa? … but then again, being here,  it’s often so frustrating to know to be capable of doing a real high profile job, making money, doing real stuff, but somehow can’t get a grip on it, a carrier and shit,  just not „dumb“ enough anymore after all my travels? not „useful“ enough for corporate life? but i  mean, who the fuck? who really wants a big car, house, louis v  and shit?

by seeing friends making carriers, having babies/family and the kind of moving on to a next level (next island? next purgatory?), you realize that this is something i silently envy. i am still so restless inside and have no idea, if there is something worth out there, living for? or wise versa something or someone happy to be with me or can calm me down? in the end, lots of luxury problems , so we will all see (again), what will happen next year!

2011 – OMG! 2011 fckn unbelievable!  i am really happy to live in these times. the technical progress, a changing world, beside all the shit we are digging, its damm exciting!so have some great days and a good start into a new fresh year!